Monday, August 15, 2011

It Makes My...

heart hurt.

We've been TTC since June of 2008.
We've had one pregnancy and one subsequent miscarriage.
I've had a very painful (my opinion and experience) hsg.
The mister had his semen analyzed.

Guess what?

We're normal. Everything is "normal". Oh, except for the fact we can't seem to get pregnant.

I was told today by the nurse relaying messages from my OBGYN, that my next step is to go see a fertility specialist--that we can't afford and that my insurance doesn't cover. But that they, "Have a free seminar every so often."

Yes, thanks, a free SEMINAR will definitely help.

When asked about the option of possibly clomid or something along those lines, "No, that's not a possibility. You'll have to see the specialist."

I'm almost 33, we've been ttc for 3 years and now I need to start from square one and hope a seminar will do the trick. How can there be no other options? Because I've gotten pregnant once it's assumed I always ovulate? How do they know?

Awesome, except it's not and my heart hurts today and I feel like I want to crawl in a hole and never come out.

1 comment:

  1. Oh, sweet girl. I will continue praying for you, for your heart, for your precious little babe that I just KNOW the Lord will bless you with. I will keep PRAYING. I know I'm not in your exact situation, as far as the infertility goes, but I'm in your situation as far as wanting/praying/waiting for a husband. :)

    Sending big HUGS your way.