Since losing some weight I've been able to shop at "normal" clothing stores. And it's great. Well, mostly great. One store I shop at often tends to be snobbish and cold but what's a gal to do? (Yep, I know there are many things I could do...but I haven't)
This one shirt I really, really liked. I liked it on the hanger. I liked it on me more. But I did not like the price. And so I played the waiting game. You know, I'm getting good at that game. This time it paid off. A week later this shirt was 40% off. Nice.
Of course this shirt is blue tones...lovely blues that I don't often wear. So this presented the first set of problems, pants and shoes. What do I wear with this shirt?
After I got home I dug through my shoe cabinet. This literally is a cabinet that I shove my shoes into on a daily basis. I happened to have a lovely pair of bronze heels to rock with this shirt. But which pants? I found myself at a point where all my pants were either black or super big.
But, ah ha! I could wait until Friday. On Fridays we can wear jeans to work. That would be fantastic.
And so Friday finally came. Unfortunately for the record books, it happened to be this Friday. A Friday I'm sure I won't forget for a very long time. I remember thinking as I dressed that morning that this shirt was going to help me cope with the day. I'd look fantastic and feel the same despite what was happening inside me.
And all Friday long this shirt stuck with me. It kept me cool in the warm, humid, sun. It made me feel put together as I watched many a people walk past me in pajamas and other lounging clothes. Every once in a while I remembered the great deal I got on that shirt. And that was my problem...I put too much emphasis on this damn shirt.
Even now, one month past the whole ordeal, whenever I see this shirt that's all I can think of. The poor shirt is ruined to me. No matter what I try to pair it with, no matter how many times I try to convince myself it's just a part of my wardrobe, I only ever think of that Friday full of tears, red-stained cotton gauzed elbows, and a small, very small, loss (emphasis on the actual size...).
I really am passed all the emotional baggage of the event, but why am I still stuck on this stupid shirt?
Oh, sweet girl. First of all...I'm so sorry that I had no idea about "that Friday." Please know that I will be praying for YOU and forgive me for not knowing. I have been SOOOOOO removed from blogs and basically keep up with Twitter as I'm able. Oh, my heart just breaks for you. I'm sending you BIG hugs through the computer.
ReplyDeleteNow, on a side-note...is it sad that I'm pretty sure I know where that shirt is from?!?! ;) Okay, it's sad. I already knew the answer, but thought I'd ask anyway.
Just for the record...it looks BEAUTIFUL on you.
well, I think it's a normal reaction. I got a new perfume the week that "this Friday" happened to me, & to this day I can't wear it. I started that week happily 18 weeks pregnant, and that Friday we found out otherwise, & the perfume immediately brings that whirlwind back.
ReplyDeleteYes, you can get over things emotionally, but there will always be something, when you least expect it, that reminds you. I try to use that time in a good way, knowing that yes we CAN get pregnant, & yes it WILL happen again eventually! =)
Oh Holly! I want to hug you! I hate that this shirt you loved so is now a reminder of that awful day... hate it. Can't we just pretend it was a shirt you hate that you were wearing that day instead? Something gaudy and awful and that you would never want to wear again anyway?
ReplyDeleteCan it work like that?